Saturday, March 27, 2010

I love this kid...

I wish these photos were not so blurry. They were taken with my daughter's phone camera. I am not sure if the baby was moving or my daughter was not able to hold still. She was laughing at how stinkin' cute he was.

So many mixed emotions. I want the best for him. I want to keep him...honestly. I know his mom loves him - but - it scares me to think of how she would not be taking care of him. I am so hoping the state will take EVERYTHING into account.

Basically, they asked if I would take him with no compensation: OF COURSE! The named bio father never bothered to show up to all three visits to establish paternity. Hmmm....would he make this lil angel a priority? I was told this young man was irritated that people were rushing him and telling him what to do? (Welcome to parenthood?)
Out of the clear blue, bio mom's formerly incarcerated father - whom she has not seen for 10-15 years (depending on who you ask) - shows up. And - oh....he just happens to have a wife who has her foster license...and SHE says, "I will be taking that baby, thank you." URGH. Can you see the mother bear rumbling inside me? Truly, my throat got tight and my eyes watered. What is WRONG with me?!

I have to trust this to the Lord...knowing that this child - just like all my bio children - could be taken from me at any moment....but only if it is in accordance with HIS WILL....and on THAT, I will rest.


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