DONE!

So much has changed since my last post...

I was at my wit's end trying to accept the realization that - while we live in the communist state of IL, with a mean & vindictive person in the decision making seat who refuses to consider second chances - we will not be adopting internationally. I sent a one word email to Pete: "DONE!" I wanted to cry...but I think I was beyond that. I actually felt more numb than emotional.

I LOVE GOD! Less than an hour later, I received a call from an agency we work with to serve as a volunteer foster family to kids who are not really in a bad situation...their moms just need a break and some time to get on their feet. The beyond kind and compassionate voice I knew well on the other end of the line said, "Lori, I am calling you because we have an unusual situation. We have a baby who needs to be placed and we need a family willing to consider adopting him." I had to sit down. I asked when he needed to be picked up and was told he was still in the hospital - 6 days old! - and.....when could I be there?!

Ali and I looked at each other...took about one minute to let it sink in...and started making plans to go to Chicago. We both agreed it would be FUN to pick up this lil angel without telling Pete....try to get home before he did OR at least be able to send him a text photo of our new bundle.

Kane stayed with the younger kids and Pete thought we were at WalMart when he came home. Needless to say, he was quite surprised to see what we found at "WalMart!"

So began the last 2+ months with Little Bear. We do not know if God's plan is for him to stay with us permanently - but - we do know he is a blessing and FOR ME, he is a confirmation that God is in charge and His ways are not the ways of any govermental agency. He is continuing to show me that His plans for me are outside of the boxes created by any man....